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Don't come back, I'm choking on all of this lead. from what's left of the night that you went and filled yourself with regret. I die quietly out of respect. I watch as it pierces my skin. Cut my eyes at the sight of your sins. When will this end? When will this end? Promise me It's not the first night on your own. Promise me it's not the first night on your own. The graves of your victims anchor on my shoulders. Seep into my bones reciting anthems of their victor split in two. You will expire. (I'm begging and pleading). The thirst of your hunter. (don't shut the door). fester in vain six feet under. You found me in places where I fear the most. You haunt me, let me go. Let me go. You found me in places where I fear the most. You haunt me, let me go. Let me go. Promise me It's not the first night on your own. Promise me it's not the first night on your own. I never question (you never mentioned) and all I yearn for (is your perspective)
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letters for your burial
02:18
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As I write this note I've realized there's nowhere to go. There's nothing left for us. There's nothing here for me. That's why I left you behind. In the place where you found me. Because now I am a ghost to the place where I fear the most. (as I write this note there's nowhere to go. nothing left for us. nothing here for me. I left you behind. where you found me. I am a ghost. I fear the most). Don't look back. (and so you stayed). you won't act. (away from me). don't regress. (another conscious). on what you lack. (just to live with this). Was it my fault? I was so blind. (everything we did all the times we tried). Were you at fault? Did we align? (I'm not responsible to keep you alive). And so you stayed. Away from me. Another conscious. Just to live with this. Don't look back. (and so you stayed). you won't act. (away from me). don't regress. (another conscious). on what you lack. (just to live with this). Was it my fault? I was so blind. (everything we did all the times we tried). Were you at fault? Did we align? (I'm not responsible to keep you alive).
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swallow choke die
02:58
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Screaming you never cared. Words aren't forgotten. This facade was created through intolerance. In this car there's never air. In these walls I'm held captive. These blades cut deep muffled screams. It didn't matter. Hating myself from someone else's perspective. Leave, I can't breathe. Leave, I can't breathe. Why do you feel the need to change everything about me? How do you go to sleep knowing everything is dying? Wake up it's all for. Give up your gain. It's not worth it for me to say that I hate it. Can you leave. In these confines, I'm left broken. These wounds will never heal by themselves. And I'll try to find a reason not to hide myself for another. Leave, I can't breathe. Leave, I can't breathe.
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a brave morning
03:08
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Every word I write is the same. It's like watching the pavement dry. From the window while you're driving and I'm hoping that you will die. In these moments I'm silent. and I can't help but cut my tongue. From the carnage that your voice is. Counting the seconds till I'm inside. I'm not strong enough to hold your walls or use a gun. (I'm too weak, I'm too fragile). You're not qualified to project your thoughts or raise a son. (You're too selfish and shallow). I'll be back. But you won't be here. Was i worthless? Am I useless? I'll be back. But you won't be here. Was i worthless? Am I useless? I'll be back. I'm not strong enough to hold your walls or use a gun. (I'm too weak, I'm too fragile). You're not qualified to project your thoughts or raise a son. (you're too selfish and shallow). I'll be back. But you won't be here. (I'm too weak, I'm too fragile). Was i worthless? Am I useless? (you're too selfish and shallow).
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I buried your self worth with my own jealousy. This isn't a plea for help. It's a blanket confession. For what I've caused in the silence, I know it wasn't silent. Don't pity the man who shot himself in the legs. I'm Routing to a glimpse of pain. To parking spaces that used to be my name. And I still drag my pen across the wall. Nothings been the same since I moved away. Now I dream about cars with no ac. but all I'm running from is me. Sincerely, I never would have shown my face. Had I known I wouldn't change. you wasted a whole year. waiting for empty promises behind the door. where I hide the shell of who I am inside. And I still drag my pen across the wall. Nothings been the same since I moved away. And now I dream about cars with no ac. but all I'm running from is me. Run from me. Run from me.
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what you once were Riverside, California
Our music aims to illuminate the darkest thoughts we harbor towards ourselves and the people who have mistreated us. By sharing our experinces through honest lyrics and melodies, we hope to assure every listener they are not alone in how they feel. These moments don't define us. Nor do they dictate our future. This isn't who you'll always be, but will one day become what you once were. ... more
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